So What REALLY is the Story, Morning Glory?

I find it is a cliché when people says family comes first.

In this world today where Steve Job robs us all, apparently, work comes first. Above all and everything, work does comes first. 
Work pays the bill, buys the toys for our kids, gadgets we wanted, fuels the car to races family gatherings, etc etc. 

Another cliché? How about 'when you love your job, you do not have to work a single day'. What a bull of crap!

All those quotes are void of realities - deadlines, costs, objectives. 

At least in relation to my job it is.

It feels like ages since I lost my grooves. I had to steer work like treading carefully in sea of ice. In all honesty, some things had to be compromised, and I hate compromises. 

Just yesterday, Kash said this is a marathon withdrawal syndrome? Is this how it feels - when pushing a simple run feels like shoving the dusts under the sheets? When running feels remorseful and pointless?
I know I am not even remotely an athlete, but these past weeks of work reminded me of my old self when exercise was basically walking from the sofa to the fridge. How is it fair for me to run and swim without any regards to my flip side of the coin. 

Just like Malaysian food, we know they are mostly bad but I want it all. I want to spend hours in the pool until my fingers turns blue, or run until my shoes are soaked from my drenched sweat, and go to work and nail those bloody presentations. I want to be Superman!

Yesterday, I managed a hot date with Ghost again, after she slowly collected dust of neglect. With my ipod, it was much an uneventful run, soaking in the post-rain evening. I miss those quiet runs when I sort many problems in my head when running, like putting jigsaw puzzles into places and seeing the bigger picture, channeling all anger out and reasoning, etc etc. 

At least I think I know how to squeeze the stress out. Negative addiction to a drug? Possible.

Comments

KOOKY KASH said…
I find out that if you spend too much time on something you love, you'll get burnt out, bored and finally resentful. Do everything in moderation.

Dont forget next year we have a mission to find Bikini Bottom. Hehe.
ziff71 said…
Same here my fren albeit I did much less and slower than u and I want to take it easy when I was already in that mode from the very beginning hahaha.

Cheer up bro, u have done a lot this year. May be it is time to drop down a gear and have leasure journey for a while :D
Zack Yui said…
I think the ups and downs they are part of a runner's life bro. Treasure it. You'll never know when you'll need it...
Fong said…
hey, u might not be superman, but u are one superparent that not everyone could be =)
Yimster said…
I guess a bit of chillin out would be good to recuperate and focus your attention on other parts of your life that's important. Once a runner, always a runner. Remember that my friend.
IJAM said…
yeah, come to think of it, sundown marathon i might give a miss. Concentrate on major runs only or shorter runs. See how...
..::EnAikAY::.. said…
This maybe is the EOY syndrome.
(EOY = End Of Year).
U r not alone bro...
Che said…
nice meeting u yesterday :P
amsyah said…
Kash - camni lah kisah cinta... mandom laaa...

Ziff - lawyers are better. maybe we all should charge by the hour, so the slower they are, the more profitable it is kan? How to slow down? Beskal tak start lagi... :D

Zack - when would I need what? the ups and downs? Never been up daa, so dunno lah
amsyah said…
thanks Fong - that's sweet. I endeavour to be their best, hopefully I'll succeed :)

Thanks too Yim... the difference is a thin runner, or a fat runner hehehe

Ijam - coincide dengan Sydney TNF daa... kau mmg takleh pegi Sundown :P

Nik - pandai kau nyanyi lagu Michael Jackson tuh...

Che - terkejut jumpa YB di Putrajaya :D
Diket said…
Chill bro. Aksi-aksi stunt kau dah lepas dengan tahap terlampau. Laju pulak tu. Lain kali rilek2 je macam aku. Hehe.

Pi family vacation pulak. Or time to bike shopping? :)
amsyah said…
Diket - aduh, terkena geletek aku pagi2 ni... abis tumpah kuah roti canai :D

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